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At first glance, you might be mistaking infatuation with love. I know i have been. When you really love someone, you need to put forth all the effort that you can give in order to get to know them and make it work. 

I myself have been looking forward to meet that soulmate who i have been looking for all of my life. It has been a lonely ride especially since i lost the source of my inspiration (infatuation) back in highschool, the apple of my eyes back in college and the first love (or was it) when i did not pursue or let the girl of my dreams know how i really felt about her until i found out that she was already taken and now engaged. My heart was broken and smashed when i heard the news. I never knew if i could ever get the courage that i needed to start a new one. 

Right now i have not seen that one single person who would really make me happy just by looking at her. When i get to meet her, i will make sure to cherish every moment with her. But first, i need to have the courage to tell her exactly how i feel. I fear rejection the most. I hate hearing “NO” whenever i make even 1 simple request. This has been the one main reason why i have not been able to meet my soulmate or had a steady relationship.

I am now putting my heart and love on my sleeve. I know this is gonna be a big step but i do hope that this will pay off big time. I’m really scared that i get to lose someone again and never had a chance to hear her “YES or NO” when i get to ask her if she would like to be the one for me..

How would you know if that special someone that you’re looking for is right in front of your very own eyes? Sometimes the one we cherish the most are the ones who do not even care to look us in the eye. The ones who really care for us are the ones that we ignore and do not give attention to when needed. Sometimes i just wish that if someone likes me, i prefer hearing it directly from them instead of them giving out mixed signals coz i am bad at getting it or interpreting them.

I have been hurt too many times that i think it wouldn’t hurt anymore if i ever get rejected again. Sometimes i think i’d just be a bachelor all my life but then again it kills me seeing happy couples with their kids out in the park having fun. I also wished to start a family of my own and give them the best quality of life possible.

The road is long and life moves on.. I know that as i go through my journey in life, i will get to meet up with that special someone whom i will be spending the rest of life with. Sometimes i think that time is starting to take its toll on me but i am positive that my soulmate is right there, maybe in front of me, looking me in the eye or just standing in the corner of the room looking at me from a distance. As what some friends told me, the right person and the right time will come… you just need to wait for it.

I’m Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It’s Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin’ My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer’s Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man’s Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya’ Know
‘Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That’s Why I Want You To
Know

I’m Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I’ve Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It’s Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They’re Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody’s Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya’ See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That’s Why I’m Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I’m Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I’m Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I’m Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could’ve
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I’m Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
(’Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can’t Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I’m Gonna Make A Change
It’s Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You’ve Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I’ve Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I’ve Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You’ve Got To
You’ve Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.

seconds hours so many days
you know what you want but how long can you wait
every moment lasts forever
when you feel you’ve lost your way
what if my chances were already gone
i started believing that i could be wrong
but you gave me one good reason
to fight and never walk away
so here i am still holding on

with every step you climb another mountain
every breath it’s harder to believe
you’ll make it through the pain
weather the hurricanes
to get to that one thing
just when you think the road is going no where
just when you almost gave up all your dreams
they take you by the hand and show you that you can

you can go higher
you can go deeper
there are no boundaries
above and beneath you
break every rule cause there’s nothing between you and your dreams

with every step you climb another mountain
every breath it’s harder to believe
you’ll make it through the pain
weather the hurricanes
to get to that one thing
just when you think the road is going no where
just when you almost gave up all your dreams
they take you by the hand and show you that you can
there are no boundaries
there are no boundaries
there are no boundaries
no boundaries

This time I
wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I’ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we’re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holding my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
and everyone wants to know they’re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
and damn it this feels too right
it’s just like Déjà? Vu
me standing here with you
so I’ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I spend forever with?

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There’s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
and everyone wants to know they’re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can’t give up!
When you’re looking? for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you’re holdin` on
Cause it could be the one, the one you’re waiting on

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they’re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

Ang Cellphone at ang Bible
Ang cellphone laging hawak ipinapakita,
Ang Bible laging nakatago at ayaw ipakita.
Ang cellphone binibili kahit libo-libong halaga,
Ang Bible ayaw bilhin, kahit isang daan ang halaga.
Ang cellphone laging pinapalitan ng case,
Ang Bible hindi man lang mabilhan ng case.
Ang cellphone ay ayaw magasgasan,
Ang Bible hinahayaang maalikabukan.
Ang cellphone bihirang makaligtaan kung saan iniwan,
Ang Bible madaling makaligtaan kung saan naiwan.
Ang cellphone mahirap ipahiram, baka masira,
Ang Bible madaling ipahiram, kahit mawala.
Ang cellphone laging binabasa kung may bagong message,
Ang Bible hindi binabasa kaya hindi makita ang message.
Ang cellphone message masarap i-share.
Ang Bible verse nakakalimutang i-share.
Ang cellphone pinapakita ang lifestyle ng tao,
Ang Bible nagpapabago ng lifestyle ng tao.
Ang cellphone mabilis maluma,
Ang Bible hindi naluluma.
Ang cellphone message kung minsan ay late,
Ang Bible laging on time ang message.
Ang cellphone kailangan magload para mag-message,
Ang Bible laging fully loaded ang message.
Ang cellphone ay mahalagang gamit ng tao,
pero ang Bible ay mas mahalaga kung gagamitin ng tao.

If I give up on you I give up on me
If we fight what’s true, will we ever be
Even God himself and the faith I knew
Shouldn’t hold me back, shouldn’t keep me from you

We gotta live our lives
Gotta live our lives
Were gonna live our lives
We’re gonna live our lives, Gonna live our lives,
Stigmatized

So lately, I’ve been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I’m gone, you’ll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could turn back time
I’ll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I’ll go wherever you will go

1. Malandi, eklat, ekek

Noong 1940’s, kapag may bra ang babae, pinagbubulungan na at mababansagang malandi.

Noon din ay may French perfume na ang tatak ay Eclat (silent T).
Kaya ang taong maarte ay tinawag ng mga Pinoy na Eclat (pronounce the T). Ngayon kapag maraming tsetseburetse at kaartehan ganon din ang tawag, "Ang dami mo namang eklat." Kinalaunan, pinaikli pa ang eklat at naging ek-ek- "Ang tagal mo namang magdesisyon kung sasama ka o hindi! Ang dami mong ek-ek!"

2.Baylerina, belyas, hospitality girls, GRO

Noong elementary ako, uso pa ang  Wakasan, sinusubaybayan ko ang nobelang  Tubig at Langis; ang Movie Especial na komiks kung saan kapanapanabik ang bawat eksena sa buhay ni Zuma na siya namang ama ni Galema. Sa komiks ang tawag sa babaeng nagbebenta ng panandaliang aliw ay baylerina. Kinalaunan, naging belyas, tapos naging English, hospitality girls tapos ngayon GRO.

3. Give me five, High Five, Appear, Align

Elementary ako nang makagisnan ko ang batiang "Give Me Five". Masyado yatang pormal ang handshake kaya "Give me Five, Man" ang pumalit. Tuwang-tuwa ang mga magulang kapag natutunan ng kanilang anak na paslit ang mag-give me five. Tapos sa mga American games, naging High Five o "Give me five, up here!"

Hindi pahuhuli ang Pinoy basta galing sa America. Ang "Give me five, up here" ay naging "Appear". Halos lahat yata ng Pinoy babies ganito ang series of training, "Anak, where is the light; where is the moon?" Ang nadagdag, "Appear! Appear!" At dahil sa E.T. ni Speilberg, "Align, Align!" Again, Tuwang-tuwa ang mga magulang.

4.Karaoke, videoke, combo

Nang mag- Community Medicine ako noon sa isang slum area ng Sta. Ana, Manila. Ito ang top 3 gamit na hindi mawawala sa mga bahay, gaano mang kaliit ang  barung-barong:  1. Panyong may tatak na panalangin ng El Shaddai   2. Television  3. Karaoke.

Kakambal na ng Pinoy ang pagkanta. Noon, kapag nagkakantahan, gamit ay gitara at song hits (Jingle). Napalitan ito nang 70’s-80’s ng minus one. Tapos, karaoke. Ngayon, videoke, at sa huling talaan ng pagkakaalam ko, 8 na ang namamatay sa "My Way".

Naalala ko noong elementary pa ko, nagtayo ang kuya ko at ng yang mga kaibigan ng isang Combo. Ngayon, ang tawag sa singing group ay– d, hindi na Combo at ang Combo ngayon ay tumutukoy sa Jollibee o McDonald’s promo.

5.CT Scan, Siete Scan, CT Skull, SC Scalp, CT Scam

Sa PGH, may tinatawag na Central Block. Nandoon ang Radiology Department kung saan ginagawa ang mga X-rays, Ultrasound, CT Scan at Radiotherapy. Dito ko naobserbahan ang evolution ng mga pinoy medical terms. May mga pasyente o bantay na aking nasasalubong, ang madalas magtanong ng direksyon.

Mga Versions ng CT Scan: (Ganon na rin yon, no!)
a. "Dok saan po ba ang Siete Scan?"
b. "Doc saan po ba magpapa-CT Skull"
c. "Doc saan po ba CT Scalp"
d. "Doc saan po ang CT Scam?"

6. Cobal, X-tray

Madalas akong mapagtanungan ng direction papunta sa Cobalt Room.

"Doc saan po ba ang Cobal" Yes, laging walang T, marami na ang ginagamit na term ay Cobal. Saan napunta ang "T".

Marami din kasing nagtatanong,

"Doc, saan po ba ang papuntang X-Tray?"

Conclusion: Ang "T" ng Cobalt, ay napunta sa X-Tray.

7. Phenobarbiedoll, metromanilazole, Paco, Tragedy of Fallot, Scissors! Ketong,

Nang mag-rotate ako as intern sa Pediatrics ng PGH, mahal na mahal talaga ng mga nanay ang kanilang mga anak na may sakit. Pilit nilang tinatandaan ang mga gamot at tawag sa sakit ng kanilang anak.

Doktor:  "Mrs. ano po ang mga gamot na iniinom ng anak niyo?"
Mrs 1:  "Doc phenobarbiedoll po."
Doktor: "Ah baka po phenobarbital." (Gamot sa convulsion ang phenobarbital)

Doktor: "Mrs. ano po ba ang antibiotic na iniinom ng anak yo?"
Mrs 2: "Doc metromanilazole po."
Doktor: "Ah baka po metronidazole." (Gamot sa amoeba ang metronidazole)

Ang tawag sa recovery room ng PGH ay PACU (Post-Anesthesia Care Unit)

Doktor: "Mrs., tapos na po ang operasyong ng anak ninyo, punta po kayo sa  PACU.
Mrs 3:  "Eh Doc, saan po sa Paco? Sa may simbahan po ba o sa may palengke?

Doktor:  "Mrs. ano po ba ang sinabi ng dating doktor kung ano ang sakit ng inyong anak?"
Mrs 4: "Eh Doc sabi po niya Tragedy of Fallot.
Doktor: "Ah baka po Tetralogy of Fallot (Isang congenital Heart Disease ang Tetralogy of Fallot)

Biglang nagtatarang ang isang nanay at sumigaw.
Mrs. 5: "Scissors! Scissors! Nag-sciscissors ang anak ko, Doc!"
Doktor: "Nurse, diazepam please, nag-seizure ang pasyente!

Doktor:  "Mrs. ano daw po ba ang sakit ng anak ninyo?"
Mrs. 6: May ketong daw po. In-examine ng doktor ang balat ng pasyente. Wala siyang makitang senyales ng ketong. Tumawag pa siya ng isang dermatologist para mag-examine nang husto. Wala talaga.
Doktor: "Mrs. sigurado po ba kayong ketong ang sakit ng bata?"
Mrs 6: "Eh iyon po ang sabi ng doktor niya dati. Mataas daw po ketong sa ihi dahil may diabetes."
Doktor: "Ah ketone po yon! (Ang positive ketone sa ihi ay yales ng kumplikasyon ng diabetes.)

Doktor: (Sa buntis na mrs. na nagle-labor) "Mrs. pumutok na po ang panubigan mo?"
Mrs 7: "Eh Doc, wala naman po akong narinig na pagsabog." nep!)

ARTICLE FROM THE PHILIPPINE STAR

The reported cause of actor Rico Yan’s
death is nightmare or bangungot.Medical investigators in China, Japan
and several Asian countries who performed autopsies on persons who died
from "acute hemorrhagic pancreatitis" found out that the majority of
them had eaten NOODLES as their supper. This was a startling finding.
However, it wasn’t the noodles that caused nightmares but dehydration.
Imbibing even with a few drinks of alcohol or just eating noodles
immediately before bedtime compound this on an empty stomach will
trigger an electrolyte imbalance and other factors that causes a person
to dehydrate or lose water.
It is therefore advisable for a person to take several glasses of water
before bedtime if he had a few or several alcoholic drinks. Avoid eating
noodles before bedtime, but if you can not avoid it, allow at least two
hours for the body to digest the noodles before hitting the sack and
drink plenty of water. The most important thing is, never go thirsty
when going to bed and be sure you have plenty of water during your
8-hour rest…

All your life, you had specific dreams about what
your family life
would be
like when you finally married. You were so intent
on what you wanted,
you
even made a list of qualities and characteristics
you were looking or
in a
spouse, in a home, in your job, in your children.

But time passed, and that person you were so
intent on didn’t come
along.
All of your friends married, had children, had
beautiful homes. And
still
you were single. You prayed and prayed and prayed
for that person to
come
along, but nothing happened.

You had a good job. You served in your church.
You spent daily time
with the
Lord in prayer and studying the Word. You
dedicated your life to
serving God
in every way possible, but still nothing. So you
decided to take
matters
into your own hands, and you began an active
search for a mate. And
within a
short period, you met someone who almost fit the
bill. Almost. Sure,
there
were a few things missing, a few rusty spots in
that person’s
character.
But, after all, no one is perfect. Of course,
your friends and your
pastor
tried to counsel you that you were making a poor
choice and that you
should
wait for the Lord to send the right person. But
that couldn’t be
right. You
had waited for a long time.

Maybe your goals were too high. Maybe you’d been
asking for the
impossible.
Maybe this was the person God wanted for you so
your character could
grow
through dealing with his or her failings.

So you married. And your life went down hill from
there.

Even though it often seems that God is slow to
answer prayers, no
matter
whether it’s about a mate, or a job, or our
children, or our
finances, or
anything else, we have to remember that God
doesn’t wear a watch. Nor
does
He look at our human calendars. He sees with
eternal eyes. He
operates on an
eternal timetable, according to His plan and His
schedule.

If God seems to be running late, don’t get
impatient and run ahead of
him.
Wait for the Lord’s timing in everything.

To the single folks out there,  this is
for you….

Single means you have the time to grow and be the
person you want to
be.

Single gives you space to grow. Sometimes, it is
harder to grow when
you are
too close to someone. Trees are planted far apart
so they can spread
their
branches and become strong as they mature.

Single means learning to live by yourself.
However, that is no more
difficult than learning to live with somebody
else.

Single means freedom. You are free to spend a
week’s vacation on the
beach,
to take computer courses, to work late on an
interesting project, to
spend
the day in bed with a good book or simply with a
person who has read
one.

Single means learning not to need a man/woman to
make your life
meaningful
but learning to live with a man/woman because you
want to be with
him/her.
Single means that sometimes you will wonder why
you will bite your
lip and
feel wistful and wonder if marriage is better.

Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling
good about being in
control
of your life. It is liking and respecting who you
are and why you
are.

And… Single is realizing that being married is
not necessarily
better, it
is
merely different…ü

"…the Lord never promised a peaceful
journey……only a safe
arrival…."